digging the heart..

last kiss playing~(recently my favorite country song)

right now i feel so empty inside..to many things i keep deep down my heart..so i manage to post this post..firstly about him,he's changing right now..to be better..n thank god..i love it..seriously..i love you so much syg:')but i know there's some consequences from his changing..i don't totally know what he's feeling..he keeps things inside..we're like falling apart:'..plus,there's some people who wants us to be apart..i don't have any idea what to do with'em anymore..sometimes,i can't straightly follow what they want me to do..i am myself..and you might think it's easy being me..i am only human..sometimes i laugh..sometimes i cry..sometimes i pretend..just to go on with the life in here..i want to paint my face and pretend that i am someone else..but i still can't..living in this place makes me sad(exception for the study time)..this place makes me think that i am too bad..sometimes i get so fed up n i don't want to look at myself in the mirror..i am not strong to deal with this..

p/s:i need you now dear:'(

thanks reader..